My 1/4 Life Crisis with Minka Kelly

So I just saw that Minka Kelly is the Sexiest Woman Alive for 2010 for Esquire Magazine. I know it's 2011 and I'm kind of late on the news. But I read a little bit of the article of her on their website about her and what struck me was that she was 30.

THIRTY! Minka Kelly is 30.

Well first off she's hot for a 30-year-old. But damn. While others are dreading that age, she's embracing it. That made me wonder. The past few days I've been living in this sort of quarter-life crisis thinking about who I am, who I'm going to be, where I am, and where I should be. A lot of thinking's going on in my head. But the what struck me was how she embraced it and I thought, "Wow!" That's where I need to be.

Well not as the sexiest man alive, although I wouldn't mind that award if it was given to me, but at that state of mind by the time I become 30.

I want to be able to be happy at where life lead me by the time 30 rolls along. I want to have accomplished something great. Complete an amazing feat. Go to amazing places. Experience the world. LIVE. That's what I want.

Here's my take on this whole "quarter-life-crisis" thing. It's this condition that people get when their in transition. When I mean transition I mean a pivotal or key moment in life where change is either coming is about to happen. Quiting my job and finding my next career has been more of a journey to find what I really want.

I really thought it my old job was going to be my career. But now I'm off to something else.

I'm on the "other side" where the grass is greener and I'm just finding which land I want to build on.

I'm a big fan of signs. That everything happens for a reason. These next few weeks I'll find my reason. Can't wait.

Finding My Passion

How to Find Your Passion

I'm in a crossroads in my life now.

And it's not one of those maybe moments where it's like I think I'm in a crossroads but I'll know it later. No. I am right in the middle of it. It all started when I quit my job a few weeks ago. There were a few factors that why I left. I wasn't making any money and I started hating the bulk of what I was doing. Now don't get me wrong a part of me still loves the job and there's many aspects of that job that I would do free, at times I felt like that's what I was doing, but there was a part of me that just wasn't happy.

Well now's my chance to do what I love. To go out there and make a difference in the world. To start making my millions. To be the entrepreneur. But I'm staring at myself right now and I'm just saying... Now what?

What do I do? And it's coming from everywhere. Because that's the NUMBER 1 question people ask you when you leave a job. What do you want to do now? Where do you see yourself working? Now I have a few things in mind. But isn't it okay to just say "I don't know?" I think it is. I was a mentor in college and whenever I asked a mentee what they wanted to major in when they were undeclared I would say, "That's okay. It sucks how society and college gives you two years to figure out what you want to do for the rest of your life. Chances are you probably need more time." Now I feel like them.

But what it really comes down to is to find a job that I'm passionate about. Something that I wouldn't mind working weekends on. Because the passion is what's going to drive me and make my dreams come true. I know what I need to do, I just need to do it. I only have myself to blame for this one.

How to find my passion?

developing, learning, growing, freedom. That's what makes me passionate.

Developing - Something where I can help or watch something develop is something that I would love to do. Some place where I can develop an idea into fruition or help someone gain a skill. Teach basically. That would be easy to be passionate about.

Learning - A place where I am constantly learning. A place with no last page, no final chapter to finish reading. A constant hands on learning environment. That would be awesome and never a dull moment.

Growing - Or should I say personal growth. A place where I can see myself maturing and growing every week. A place where I can see the progress I have made since I've started and seeing that what I'm doing is making me a better person.

Freedom - I want to be able to do shit. Where I can set my own hours. "Be my own boss". Work where I want to work. I want to be able to go places without worrying clocking in an out. I want the time to live my life.

Now it's time for me to find this opportunity and seize it. Where do I see myself a year from now? It's time for me to find out. I'll tell you when I do.

Palladia. Epic. Awesome. Music.

Palladia

One of the things that I do to pass the time is to watch Palladia. It's an HD channel that shows nothing but music.

It's like what MTV, Music Television, would be if it did what it's name said. They always have concerts, artist documentaries, and music videos. It's a great channel to just leave on while your working in your room. For instance I'm watching Jason Mraz playing in concert while I'm typing this blog. They played Mariah Carey's concert last night along with a documentary about Woodstock.

This is an HD exclusive channel, which means it's only for cable boxes who have high definition. Which sucks for everyone else but is a blessing because every program is in HD. Blu-ray quality concerts for free. Pretty sweet.

My Jam Right Now...

This is my favorite song right now. This song is called "He Won't Go" from Adele's sophomore album, 21. The song is perfect. From the raw beginning of just the drums it builds as the haunting piano comes in. By the time Adele speaks your drawn by the song. The chorus just hits you. The best of the song is the bridge when each instrument comes in after another to just build it up again to the chorus. The song is just overall sick. Just listen and enjoy. The overall cd is pretty good but I'll chime in on that on a later time.