Pain and Hunger

I'm twenty-two years old, recently graduated from Towson University with a double major in Business Marketing and Electronic Business and in the process of getting a job. Granted I've only been trying the past day or so but I'm starting to feel scared of the person I'll become if nothing happens.

Most of my friends have school and classes to take care of. But as I'm playing on my PS3 I'm realizing that if I don't do anything I'll be doing this permanently. While there's nothing wrong with a little R&R, I have to do something. I just came back from my trip to Canada three days ago and I'm already applying for jobs. Would have applied sooner but I was still transitioning to life back in the States and I was trying to celebrate my birthday with a fever.

But the point is I need to work again. I need to feel that pain and hunger for something. I'm starting to think if I don't get a job soon I'll just be a bum with a degree. I want to start making something of myself and get my drive back. I feel that once I get that feeling of purpose things will start happening again.

I can easily turn on the PS3 and play a game. But I don't want to do that the rest of my life. I need to start doing something soon. I need to experience real excitement and feeling again. I think that's the only way that will get me out of this funk and start my next chapter in life. I know that I'm "in transition" right now but it's scary and I don't know what's going to happen to me. Guess we'll find out soon enough over the next coming weeks.